I've been drawing a lot more lately. I realized that I actually like traditional art much more than digital. Partly because I'm so fucking awful at digital art. My vision feels skewed--much more so than on paper, at least--when I'm drawing with a tablet and my computer. My favorite medium is ink and watercolor. I'm waiting on my first paycheck so I can purchase Holbein gouache and take those for a ride. I'm very, very bad at painting on paper, but it's so fun and stimulating that it's hard to let go.
I stopped drawing regularly when I was a junior in high school, because I was convinced my vision was fucked up. Like everything I saw that came out "good" turned out awful when I looked at it a week after. It's so hard to look at your own work when your eyes play tricks on you like that.
But I like moving my hands...I like when it's quiet and I get to draw and five hours pass quickly by. It's really blissful. I like it more than writing...I've always been better at writing, but I've never been satisfied with capturing my thoughts with words the same way as I do with art. I've always felt more destined for drawing than writing.
I'm so jealous of historical painters...especially the successful ones, like Alma-Tadema and Sorolla. They were wealthy and spent whole days painting and painting. I can't imagine a more beautiful life.