You cross my mind all the time,
In thoughts and dreams and hopes,
Twisting, dancing in my mindscape,
Like flowery wisps of Colouds.
I want to spend all my life with you,
But my time isn’t for you anymore,
And your time isn’t for me,
Though I wish, perhaps, it could be different.
In another life, it could be Us,
And not just you,
Not just me,
Off on our own, leading separate lives,
Walking different paths,
I wish I could go back in time,
And live those same days over and over.
Because today? Well, today you’re gone,
And it’s just me now.
I want to hate you and blame you,
Demonize you, just like I’ve done,
To all the demons haunting my soul,
But I can’t hate you for leaving,
In a way, you did die,
Though I 👀 you all the time.
You changed before my eyes,
Like a metamorphosis gone wrong,
Instead of bright flowers and glittering stars,
You became shadow and anger,
Remorseless and cold.
I can’t love you,
I want to,
But this person you’ve become,
Is unrecognizable to me.
I tried my best to save us,
Salvage what we could,
But you looked me in the eye,
And from your hurtful words I saw,
I saw how fruitless it was to try any harder.
If only you were willing to try with me,
If only we’d worked together,